A SOLID MIRROR

A SOLID MIRROR

Digging into the thick dark, covering up – – –
Maybe that’s all I know how to do.
Maybe I just can’t get by, maybe
combing my hair, getting dressed, putting on my shoes
is as hard each day as parting the Red Sea.
Maybe I’ve laid too bare what’s inside of me
and that’s why I hide myself again
and again, because anything else is too great a burden.
 
Maybe, like those doctor’s orders you learn by heart,
I have to swallow Ritalin and Lithium until I black out.
But I won’t give in to Lithium and Ritalin.
I’ll head to the sunset shore like Aline,
spread my wings and alight over that blue glass
and someone will write my name on the sand.
 
I’ll fly over the sea, and a cresting wave will erase
my name from the shore and drag it far away.
They will call my name and a name is all I will be
Because I couldn’t wait to wake into this dream – – –
 
I will take off over this sullen earth – 
If you can’t sit down, you fly away.
 




 

A SOLID MIRROR