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Heather McHugh

NOT TO BE DWELLED ON

NOT TO BE DWELLED ON

NOT TO BE DWELLED ON

Self-interest cropped up even there,
the day I hoisted three instead of the
called-for two
spadefuls of loam onto
the coffin of my friend.

Why shovel more than anybody else?
What did I think I’d prove? More love
(mud in her eye)? More will to work
(her father what, a shirker?) Christ,
I’d give an arm or leg
to get that spoonful back.

She cannot die again; and I
do nothing but relive.
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NOT TO BE DWELLED ON

Self-interest cropped up even there,
the day I hoisted three instead of the
called-for two
spadefuls of loam onto
the coffin of my friend.

Why shovel more than anybody else?
What did I think I’d prove? More love
(mud in her eye)? More will to work
(her father what, a shirker?) Christ,
I’d give an arm or leg
to get that spoonful back.

She cannot die again; and I
do nothing but relive.

NOT TO BE DWELLED ON

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Gemeente Rotterdam
Nederlands Letterenfonds
Stichting Van Beuningen Peterich-fonds
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Gefinancierd door de Europese Unie
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